As a young woman I did not know that ‘women of a certain age’ (who the hell came up with that term?) suffer from brain fogginess, lack of energy, lower libido, mood swings, poor sleep and loss of vibrancy. Many women also experience weight gain, hot flushes and skin problems.
As a young woman I did not know that I, who always had a 5-year plan, goals and a to do list, would find myself wondering what comes next in life, now that my children aren’t far from leaving home.
What is it that I really want?
What do I want to pursue?
What can I do?
What is my purpose now?
What might my dreams be?
Do I have any left?
And most importantly, where on earth will I find the energy and capacity to even contemplate the answer to these questions?
I, who as a young woman was full of energy, the cheerleader to my children and my friends, for whom “the glass was always half full and the other half yummy” found myself exhausted and overwhelmed at the thought of coming up with yet another nutritious dinner.
I had reached that ‘certain age’.
For me that age was 48 and I still did not ‘know’ any of these things, but I did ‘experience’ them. Why hadn’t anyone told me? Why didn’t I know? Why weren’t my friends talking about this? Why was this just quietly accepted?